My husband lost his job of 11 years today. It's still a shock to me, although it shouldn't be. The company's been struggling for several years. My husband is feeling pretty badly. I feel terrible for him. I feel tears well up sometimes when I look at him.
Today I spent a good amount of time on the computer, looking for jobs, checking out our state's unemployment site. The whole time I kept getting such conflicting feelings. They sorta swept through me in strange waves. For a while I had a terrible feeling of doom. Sort of a sick feeling in my stomach. Then I felt a bit relieved, and hoping for the best, as my husband has been miserable at his job for many years now. Then there was a sort of blank feeling, like NOTHINGNESS. We've never been in this situation, and I am already realizing how blessed we have been. In this economy, we really have no idea what is going to happen.
Please say a little prayer for me and my family.